The Uncertainty Of Life Certainly Sucks!

Not sure why I am in a foul mood. I arrived home from work around 6pm, Brant and His son Justice where already here ready to play some "Call of Duty 4" and have some fun joking around. Mike Poole came over "on his way to the gym," turns out the only work out he accomplished was his thumbs and index fingers as he joined in playing. Mike Bishop stopped up, hungout. It was fun, good guy fun.

They all left around 7:40, I hadn't eatin dinner yet so I went to the Jupiter Ale House. This is where I think it started going bad. I arrived to find there was still a short wait, two young guys piled in the door behind me, as I was getting my little seating pager, and the hostess seated them promptly n a booth and sat talking, laughing, and smiling. I don't know why it irritated me so much, but from there out I just ended up in a funk.

I thought about some things on my mind that I wasn't too happy about and it was all down hill from there. I started thinking about how incredibly uncertain my life is, will I have a job tomorrow, will I ever get married or will I be alone for the rest of my life, will I find and fullfill the calling God has placed on my life, will I ever figure out how to accept the love and friendship my friends give me? This is what upset me, I have been feeling like I just cannot relate to anyone, talk to me in person, on the phone whatever and you would probably think everything is fine. It isn't, I feel very distant from the closest people in my life to no fault of theirs. This is what's bothering me.