When They Say "You Just Know"

I have always been one of those skeptics when people say "when you meet the right person you will just know." I have always felt there is this drawn out process of getting to know someone, the constant back and forth power struggle of independence and control. They say things like "I don't understand it, there is no way of explaining it, it is just right, normal, natural." The logic in my brain says, that's a bunch of bologna, romanticized irrational thinking and it isn't possible.

Relationships take an immense amount of work, they are stressful, and the only thing natural about it is the desire to reproduce. This is what I thought. I had been single for a long time and according to my mother I was afraid of commitment. I never thought I was afraid of commitment, I was just not willing to commit to the wrong person.

I had been quite successful in finding the wrong person over and over again, so I gave up. I think this concerned my mother that maybe I was not into girls. This is every evangelical mother's nightmare and there was this part of me that enjoyed making her worry her son might actually not be into girls. Truth is I have been too into girls and it has been a struggle in the past that God has been awesome in freeing me from.

So I am sure what has been said already about Jenn thus far on my blog may indicate that I might like her and there may just be something going on. I spent the weekend with Jenn and it was absolutely perfect. There was no romantic dinner, no expensive date (other than the plane ticket) just the chance to spend time with the most amazing woman in the world. Everything was perfect and the only way to say it would be,

" I don't understand it, there is no way of explaining it, it is just right, normal, natural, in a super-natural kind of way."